help...

sorry, im not very good at this post thing so umm... i would just like to bring attention to the new template. i decided i would change it up a little bit. another thing i would like to bring attention to is that i have actually been reading. i have read almost all of Andrew Schwab's books, which are hilarious. but there are also some very good stories in them. probably worth the read. Andrew Schwab is the lead singer of project 86 by the way for those of you who dont know. this is probably one of my favorite writings from the book We Caught You Plotting Murder, just to give you an idea of the things he writes about. it is called Swallow This... It Will Make You Feel Better

"You've got a disease that there is no known cure for.We have run the appropriate tests and found alarming conclusions. This is a very troubling circumstance. But what is more troubling is how you developed this condition. It seems due to constant exposure to the dangerous realities around you, this extremely rare virus has infected you. I am afraid there is no known cure. On top of this, the disease is extremely contagious as well." Perplexed as usual, I had to ask, "What is the disease?" The answer: "An unyielding for the truth, a passion for the people around you, and sorrow for those who still lie in darkness. To put it plainly you have a heart. We must amputate immediately."

i really like this writing because it is true. it is very rare to find somebody who really cares. someone who really cares about people, about life, about everything around them. and as much as these people care, there are always going to be twice or even more times that amount of people who just dont care at all. they dont care what happens to anyone around them. most of the time they just want what is best for themselves. these people will put you down any chance they get, just to bring themselves up. and that makes it hard for the people who really do care to actually care, because when u try to care for a person that has been screwed over for too long and for too many times, that person is not used too being cared about. they get scared. they run. they go and find somebody else to put them down. that is what they grew up with, that is probably what they will live with for the rest of there lives. and the people that care can only do so from a distance, which may absolutely kill that person, but they care so much about someone else, they want to see that person be and do and see the best of everything no matter what it takes.

now a lot of this may be jibberish, but im pretty sure this is actually what i think. i guess this is the best way i could put this in my own words as long as it was. i dont really know if it is right or not, but if it's not somebody please correct me... until then, this is what i am going to leave you with. so until next time. ttyl.